I Will Never Forget You
It has not been that long
Since that horrible, nightmare day
When I was told you would not come along
It broke every sun shining ray
I would never get to see your happy face
My arms would never get to hold you
Baby pinks or blues will not fill the space
But I will never forget you
I hear the cries of other little ones around
As my heart shatters and breaks
A missing piece I want to be found
But my world just shudders and shakes
So many plans had already been made
However, they would not come through
The pain and heartbreak doesn’t seem to fade
And I will never forget you
The days drag by so slow
Just wishing you were still with me
Wishing I could have watched you grow
Becoming all you could be
Tiny little feet and hands won’t enter our home
But blessings you have brought are not few
In my heart, just for you, is a special dome
Because I will never forget you
The time had come
The excitement I could not bear
A number I had drawn behind some
But couldn’t wait for my child to be in my care.
I quickly claimed my place in line
One by one each number was called
Trying to patiently wait for mine
At my leg my fingers fiercely clawed.
Frustration and ache started to build
I thought my number was finally there,
But it was by mistake, more emotions to shield
About me, did anyone care?
Trying to hold on and keep my strength
Emotions surfacing but holding my tears
Time passing at greater length
Would I be confronting my worst fears?
Numbers called that had come later
Hope slipping further and further away
To every problem trying to cater
Watching others get my sunny ray.
Working hard, pushing forward
Never did I slumber
Wondering how I got this card
For I am the forgotten number.
Trusting In His Time
Waiting on dreams to come
Working hard to make them come true
Your path getting there, harder than some
Others not knowing what from you is due
Hoping that one day the pain won't be so bad
As the path seems to have no reason or rhyme
At this trial being frustrated and mad
Couldn't it come in less time?
Watching as others receive your dream
Wishing and hoping one day you can have it too
Heartbreak only making you want to scream
Can this nightmare really be true?
Doing everything you possibly can
Hoping that something will possibly work
More and more seeming to hit the fan
What more around the corner will lurk?
So much time, but timing still not right
Keeping faith and continuing to climb
Not knowing when the end will be in sight
But trusting in His time
He has a plan that won't deceive
Giving you peace and comfort in the drop of a dime
So many blessings, yours to receive
Just keep trusting in His time