A few days ago I was reading some old Ensign articles. There was one story in particular that caught my attention. It was about a father and a son who had to carry large heavy logs up a hill, and then they would cut them to the size they needed and assemble them. After a while they realized if they cut them into pieces first and then carried them up the hill it was much easier. I got thinking about how similar this situation has so many similarities to our infertility journey, or any trial for that matter.
Sometimes infertility can be so overwhelming and stressful. At times Taylor and I have tried to carry the trial as a whole. We looked at the whole complete picture. For example, when we were told we needed to work toward IVF we became so overwhelmed because we saw the large sum of money we needed to save, everything we needed to prepare, and then everything we needed to do to complete the procedure. It was so overwhelming and we didn’t know how we were going to do it. We then decided we need to just look at one little piece at a time to get through it. Even just looking at some of the first steps, like saving up the means to do the treatment it was overwhelming so we broke it down even further. We look at it at small amounts at a time and then eventually we will get to the whole amount that we need.
This is the same process we needed to take for our IUI treatments. It would be overwhelming when they would hand us a calendar with all of our appointments and what medicines we needed to take when. We had to take it all one day at a time and before we knew it we were done with the treatments and we were waiting for results.
This process has become key to us in making it through all of the hard times especially. When we try to look at everything we just get disappointed and feel like giving up. We will make it there though. We just need to take it in small pieces. We are moving forward with all of it and sometimes we wish everything would come together faster, but are trying to just focus on one step at a time.