Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Moving Forward, But Still Looking Back

With the new year coming, I have overwhelmed myself a few times with the thoughts of the coming year. When I think of a new year I often think of simply leaving a year in the past and moving forward with the new year. I set goals without looking back all that much. This week I started thinking of all the possibilities that 2015 will bring. This will be the year we hopefully do our next three IUI treatments. Then I started thinking about it more. Can I really take another three treatments? Can I go through all the ups and downs? Can I handle all the emotions again? Can I handle all the medications? Can I handle the possible heartbreak? All these things kept running through my head and it was so overwhelming. We are excited to move forward, but at the same time we have been through this before. We know how hard it is. We know that there are so many ups and downs with it.

After I was thinking about all of this, I saw a quote on Facebook that said something along the lines of, "gain strength from the past and move forward." It was just what I needed. It really is true. I started thinking back at how far we have come and how much we have been through. We have been on this journey for over three and a half years now. We have been through so much together and we aren't going to give up now. Hopefully this journey to our miracle won't be too much longer, but no matter how long, we will get through it. During the hard times of moving forward we can look back and think of all the things we have been through, including losing 6 babies, 3 IUIs, surgeries, etc. Now when I look back, I can take comfort in knowing that we have come so far already. Bring on 2015!

Sunday, December 28, 2014

December Update

2014 has been an amazing year for Making Someday. Over the past 11 months, I have done about 35 books and over 300 quiet book pages. It was a lot of work but it has been so great to do. I have met so many people through it and have received so much positive feedback about the books. It has been a great way to pass the time of waiting for the right timing for our miracle. It has all been so much more successful than I ever dreamed of and I am still going. I started out with 0 pages, but have designed 33 pages. I love adding more patterns to my collection and have a list of ideas I still want to do. It has been so much fun making cute little children happy while we can't have our own with us right now. I am so happy I followed the prompting to start Making Someday. There were so many times that I almost didn't even attempt it.

We have had a lot of ups and downs in relation to our infertility journey over the past year. We thought we would be doing treatments this year but that didn't end up happening due to kidney stone issues. We also miraculously got pregnant on our own and lost babies #5 and #6. It has been a long road but we have worked through it all and are still hopeful for what is to come. Good things are definitely coming.

Now that we have our genetics results back we are moving forward. We have a date set for our next treatments as long as things go as planned. We are very excited to move forward. We really hope these next treatments work, but even if they don't, there is a plan and it will work out in the right time and in the right way. We aren't announcing yet when we are going to start our next treatments but we will definitely keep everyone updated as it gets closer to time.

We want to thank everyone for all the love, support, and prayers that have been received. It all makes a huge difference and it is so great knowing there are so many people on our side. We are excited to keep sharing our journey with everyone and can't wait until we can share our miracle with everyone!

Friday, December 26, 2014

Genetic Testing and Results

Earlier in December I went in to get genetic testing done. Before we move on with our next round of treatments it was recommended that we do some testing to see if we are carriers for some genetic issues. It would either give us more insight to what is going on, or it would confirm that we are clear to move forward with things without any anticipated issues. I was the one that went in for the blood draw. They only have one person go in for the testing and then if something comes back positive on the first person then the second person is tested for those things. Both people have to be positive for something for it to be an issue.

Unfortunately the morning I went in Abby was not there. She is the only that is able to get my blood easily. I used to have really good veins, but ever since the ectopic and all the different blood draws, my veins have become really difficult. It took two different nurses and several pokes to get the blood draw done. They finally were able to succeed, but they had to do it right above my wrist and it hurt really bad! At least they got it though. All of this will be worth it in the end when we have our baby.

December 23rd a nurse from UFC called and said that everything looked normal, and we got the official documents and explanations on December 24th. I am negative for all of the genetic testing that they did and they tested for a LOT of things. It was good news to hear that we don't have any genetic issues and that we are able to move forward with things as planned. We are getting excited for the next steps that are coming!