November 18th we got a big surprise. I took a pregnancy test and it came back positive. We were both really excited but we were also cautious about everything. The next day I went in for a blood test and it came back at 48 which is definitely positive. This was exciting news but we had to wait until Friday to see if it was doubling. They were originally going to wait about a week to do another blood draw but we were supposed to leave for vacation on November 25th so we pushed it sooner. Of course we would be so happy to cancel vacation for a baby but we wanted to see what the numbers were sooner.
We went in to get the next test done Friday morning and we got the results that the number dropped to 13. I was having an early miscarriage. This was devastating. This baby became our 6th angel. We were worried at that point that we still wouldn't be able to go on vacation. I needed to actually have the miscarriage and have my levels drop by Tuesday morning in order to still go on vacation. We both really wanted the vacation still but we also needed to avoid complications. We have had the vacation planned for months. It came about after our last loss. We thought there would be no way we could still go though. It would have to all go so fast in order to be able to go. I went in two days later and my numbers dropped to 5. Later that afternoon I had the actual miscarriage. They usually like to see the numbers under 5. I talked to the doctor Monday night and even though it wasn't below 5 he gave me clearance and told me to go on the vacation. It came down to the wire but we got to go.
Of course we would have much rather been able to have the baby than the vacation but we are so happy we were able to get away and take a break after this miscarriage. We both really needed it. We are so grateful for our family and friends who surrounded us during the difficult time of losing our 6th baby. We had people bring us meals so we wouldn't have to worry about it ourselves, we had countless people praying for us who knew about the miscarriage and many who didn't know. A friend and her husband even came by on Sunday when they found out, and she came armed with chocolate and a hug. It was just what I needed at that time. We are so beyond grateful for all our family and friends, and the love and prayers are constantly felt. Losing this baby has been very difficult as any loss is, but we know that Heavenly Father still has a plan for us. Someday we will have a baby in our arms. We can't wait for that amazing day to come. We look forward to enjoying the holidays together and we also have a date set for our next 3 IUI treatments. We are anxious to see what the future holds.
