A New Year

The coming of a new year is always hard for us but also quite exciting. Taylor and I were laughing as were talking on new years eve. We were talking about how we always say this year may be our year to get our miracle. Yet the past two new years that has been said. This year we decided we weren't going to say that. It seems to be that way for a lot of things. Every time I start a new journal I write about how maybe by the time I finish this journal I may finally be getting our baby.

This year we are taking the approach of taking things as they come. We aren't going to stop trying of course. We are saving up for the next set of treatments and they will come when the timing is right. Yes, it was frustrating to realize 2013 was over and we still didn't have that empty place in our hearts filled. However, we have taken so many steps forward this year. We started out 2013 not knowing what was going on. I had surgery, we had tests after tests, we got some answers, had 3 IUIs and the first one resulted in another angel, re-evaluated, got more answers, and made a new plan. That is a lot of steps in one year.

Instead of being sad for what we don't have we look at the things that we did have and all the good times. We are so blessed we were even able to afford all that we were able to, to keep moving forward with starting our family. Many times we didn't know if it would happen, but it did, and it all worked out.

We are still hopeful for 2014. Even if we don't get our miracle we will be taking steps forward. We will constantly be taking steps forward until our miracle finally comes. We are not giving up and we never will. We will keep going until it happens. We will work through 2014 day by day and beyond if needed. We have so much hope through our Heavenly Father and He is giving us strength every day to make it through.